PERSONAL

As I sit here…

08.12.2008

I’m sitting in the lobby of the Marriott in Downtown San Francisco, and I can’t help but think about everything that is outside this building. Not just the surroundings, but the potential — my potential — outside this bubble of a safe and “secure” corporate job. (What corporate job is ever secure?) I’m here for work, helping with the presentations for our National Sales Meeting. I can definitely say that I’m comfortable being here in my current job capacity; however, I do crave and yearn for something more.

I remember how hard I worked through high school. I finished second in my class, 0.18 points from being the Valedictorian. I was driven and determined to succeed. That was the path that my parents put me on, without all the pressure. I desired success and I drove it to the finish line.

When I got to college, it was a whole different ball game. Classes were huge, and I became a guppy in the shark tank. Scared. Intimidated. I desired “safety”. I floated through college with a major that I was interested in, but I lacked that drive and determination I was so familiar with in high school. Nevertheless, I did well in my classes, but I stayed in my comfort zone.

From the beginning there was one thing I was bound and determined to do since high school: study abroad. My junior year of college, I packed up two huge suitcases, kissed and hugged my family goodbye for now, and embarked on the greatest journey of my college career. I moved to Lyon, France for a full year. I met some of my best friends, learned so much independence, and eliminated any fear I held about travel. I also embraced my deep love for photography. At the time I only had a 2nd or 3rd generation Sony point-and-shoot digital camera, but I loved it. I captured so much of my trip and came back with a couple gigs of images. Friends, landscape, travel, good times. That year changed my life.

I’ve found that taking the uncertain path can have some of the biggest payoff. I knew none of the people who traveled abroad that year; I was the only one representing my university. And yet, these folks are my closest friends that I have today. Our bond from a shared experience and shared moments is unlike any other I can imagine.

And now, I yearn to take another uncertain path and pursue my love of capturing happy, once in a lifetime moments. After last night, I’m ready. I’m ready to take some action and not just think about doing it. This is something that I’m incredibly excited about — and for anyone who knows me — I’m not the most easily excited. That’s how I know that this is different. I feel so alive. I’m not about to extinguish that feeling.

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3 Comments

  • Reply Allisoleil 08.12.2008 at 10:31 pm

    It’s wonderful to read what an impact the seminar had on you!! Go for it Catie, and best to you as your shoot for the stars :) Bon chance!

  • Reply Julie Ann 08.14.2008 at 5:54 pm

    Hi Catie,
    I’m in the same boat as you (starting to get into photography) and it’s nice to read blogs from other people who are learning and striving to take pictures. I hope you don’t mind if I peek on your blog every now and then! :)

  • Reply Gustavo Fernández 08.16.2008 at 10:56 am

    You definitely have a great voice on your blog, keep it up and best of luck in the photography!

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